1. Sleep. Hike. Eat. Photo. Get hands on stringed instrument.
2. It's French.
3. Yes. No death threats. What's up with all you fools whose imaginary friends fucked you over or are dicks?
4. Yes to all. Make lights. Eat and drink warmth. Ibuprofen. Sort the demons.
5. Learn to ski.
With regard to 3, it was between junior and senior year when I had that 105 degree fever. Extenuating circumstances....
1. Having gone from Sony to a tiny startup that went completely apeshit very quickly and back to Sony I am fine with a boring soul-sucking cubicle job that I at least have some element of control over.
2. In San Francisco, the rules only apply to other people.
3. As a kid I tended to import imaginary friends from my interpretations of video games. These days I still have creatures in my head that I sometimes make comics about.
4. I've heard that full-spectrum lamps help with that.
5. Sleep. A lot.
1. substitute has a great LJ post about the benefits of working in an established company rather than a startup. I spent some time earlier this year in a weird startup and some of his points were eerily familiar.
2. Explain more?
4. Maybe I should just stick my head inside the lizard cage at key points in the winter. It is a desert vivarium after all.
2. I mean, people break the rules all the time, but expect everyone else to follow those same rules. Doesn't matter what it's about; standing in line, taking turns at a 4-way stop, jaywalking, disbursing stock options, handling work conflicts, and everything else. It's all take, no give.
Another weird thing about the bay area (San Francisco in particular) is you can't just do something because you enjoy it, you have to have a Cause behind it. You can't just be a vegetarian, you have to be part of the vegetarian movement. You can't just make music or draw art, you need to have a Big Message and be deeply involved in the community of people who are trying to also do stuff.
1) All things that normally support life, such as taking a vitamin, and drinking more water, and biking, and having sex. And working in theatre, which even if it doesn't pay enough yet, makes me happy because all the theatre people so far are fun and smart, and there's always cookies.
2)I'll let you know if I get to visit it, which I might in a few days.
3) I am pretty sure I never had an imaginary friend but in elementary school we imagined a whole tribe of sentient mice that lived in the shrubbery by the play fields.
4) This sort of feeling comes upon me at times and I do believe it is a factor of all the things you mention. What I find is good about this is that if I understand any one of these things to be a major reason for sadness, the sadness abates. Especially if I can chalk it up to being on my period. I just tell myself the sadness is therefore fake, and I should bake something and feel better in a few days.
I recommend wearing a hat all the time, visiting places like coffee shops or bars if they are warm and filled with comfortable light. As for uncertainly, I usually write down everything I don't know that I wish I knew, because as long as I am aware all the time of what I don't know the feeling of uncertainly is not vague or haunting.
1) pumping iron at the gym
2) Idk maybe it's full of terrible white people who love dreadlocks, or some other bizarre goofy ass terrible bullshit
3) I have an imaginary friend called Social Mobility
4) you can pump iron at the gym - but yes you're sad because the pasty miserable sky is dark all the time and winter is slowly setting in. In the summer we'll get drunk and go to kiddie pools and drink rum out of lemonade bottles.
5) Graduate school applications. Maybe hosting a New Year's Party on the rooftop of our building.
1. I am enjoying the horrors
3. His name was Gideon, he was stripey like the Hamburgler but yellow and purple instead of black and white. My 8yo had an imaginary big brother Joe for awhile; this was followed by the three siblings Deathvader, Killvader, and Kissara, whom he saw on his nightly journeys to Mars. My 3yo talks in a funny voice and says this is her being Pinocchio. For awhile she was sometimes girl-Pinocchio and sometimes boy-Pinocchio but of late when asked she is always girl-Pinocchio. Girl-Pinocchio lives in San Francisco.
4. Turn the heat up, take vitamin d, exercise, and use a SAD lamp.
5. Find someplace to move to because Eugene, no.
1. Booze, baking and sex.
3. I sadly don't remember her name, but I do remember I punched a girl because she said my imaginary friend was stupid. I was seven.
4. Yes to all, as someone else said. Full spectrum bulbs are AWESOME, get one. Try melatonin to help you go to sleep when you need to be. [lalala hippie shit]
5. Stay sane.
1. coffee and black tea, sometimes in quick succession. then eating greens to make up for the iron loss from all the caffeine. also: molasses for the vitamins'n'minerals and pure deliciousness. what else? bikes, cooking, writing, reading books, yelling along to the Pixies.
2. god, i don't even know. Seattle sure is pretty and i love how many secret pockets it has, and how many intimidating hillclimbs. nonetheless, i am gettin the wanderlust again.
3. yes. my friend Pedro, who od'd when i was 12. while he was a real person, we didn't actually know eachother all that well, tho he was probably the closest friend i'd ever had at the time. i still have dreams about that dude. and my dead grandmother. i feel like this makes me a giant weird, but there you go. he was the first homo who ever knew i was also a homo.
4. all three. walks, bikes, and making sure you're getting vitamins A, B-complex, and D, as well as iron. hugging the fuck outta books, Cat, and greens-related food.
5. cuddle, fuck, and ride bikes lots. i am getting an ok start so far, maybe? trying, anyhow.
1. pondering the Fear and the Loathing and what passes for "chaos" in the moderntime. also shucking pomegrantes. somehow that ties in.
2. cthulhu fhtagn. or something. I attempt to avoid both Baltimore and the DC.
3. not in the common sense. I have/had/will have friends what are non-physical. the pain and the horror and the Twisting of thought and word at times. it is by will alone I put my mind in motion. it is by the juice of Sappho that thoughts acquire speed, the lips acquire stains, the stains become a warning. it is by will alone I put my mind in motion.
4. yes, in different amounts. use the thing in your head what is to think with, and you may be able to find something resembling a question.
5. not simply dream anymore, but Dream.